I'm having a pretty hard time these days. A friend of mine commited suicide one week ago. He was another friend's boyfriend. It was one hell of a shock to all of us. It still is.
I've never experienced something like this before. I mean, I've lost my father and my grandfather to cancer, but that's something completely different. I hate cancer, but at least we can explain it. People get sick, and some get well, and some don't. That's just how it is, though I still wonder why it had to happen to my father.
Anyway, the point is, suicide is so much worse. Leaving so many questions. So many thoughts. I can't imagine what his girlfriend is going through right now. No good people deserves this. And she is one of the best.
And this whole thing reminds me a lot of my dad. That's NOT a bad thing, I mean, it would be strange if I didn't think about him. You just keep wondering about where they are now. I really, really wanna think of them sitting there somewhere, watching over me. But I don't know. It's a nice thought, but I don't know if I can believe in it. Bah... I just wish he was here.
Other than that, I'm okay. I've had a very nice weekend, meeting some dear friends and playing a lot of indoor bandy.
And I have things to look forward to, like seeing Immortal in less than four weeks and Nine Inch Nails the day after. So that's nice.
Hope you're doing fine.